oNcE a ChRiStIaN, aLwAyS a ChRiStIaN

exams...exams...exams...

2008-09-09T18:18:00.002+08:00

exams...exams...and more exams...haix...so the busy and rushing!!! tis yr seriously is cmi lorx...>.<...sumore cant go tq...anyways...now is all studying and then exams...simple but boring routine...>.<...

resuming...yayyy!!!

2008-08-06T20:35:00.002+08:00

heys...guess wat...my blog is resuming...!!! yayyy!!! cuz my com can see my blog le...hahahahax...me sounded baichi...hahax...but seriously is happie lorx...cuz horx...tis blog is stuck for duno how long le then now can see le...that means me can so suming to it le...heeez...will be posting stuff...heeez...
yayyy!!!

!!!!!!!.......-.-

2008-05-10T19:31:00.002+08:00

cannot make it...seriously cmi....me cant even get into my own blog lorx...-.-...seriously haf no idea y...me can only write post here but cant view it...-.-...sounds alittle baichi i knw...hahax...aiyo!!! if tis continues...me going to create a new one!!! help...!!! me nid help!!! >.<...T.T...>.<...T.T...>.<...T.T...

over le...

2008-05-08T15:35:00.002+08:00

over le...its all over le!!! 2day is the sort of last paper of my mid yr exam...heeex...but monday still haf chinese listening compre...but that one is just sit down there and listen only...so no nida study anything...heeex...finally can relax for sum time le...then after that gotta chiong all the way again...cuz after june haf prelims then after that haf my 'o' levels...soooooo the rushing tis yr...tis yr is rushing yr...hahax...but after tis yr can really relax le...cuz tis is my final yr...heex...then after that go poly...but also must see whether my results gd enough to go to the poly and course me want...heeex...well...see how bax...
now...is a short short time for me to relax...heeex...cant take too much pressure...>.<...wana go out and haf fun...heeex...anyone going out...??? heeeeeeeex.....
if didnt go out now...then nida wait till 'o' levels finish le...>.<...heeex...

taking care of kids...

2008-05-05T12:38:00.017+08:00

2day is the zhong liang ji de...my combine humans...>.<...soooooo the tiring...but after 2day can relax abit le...nt that jialat le...heeex... on sat nitex actually me wana update de but then my father doing duno wat...using the com...so the in the end me didnt update lorx...then on sun too tired le so also didnt update...heeex... actually on sat is not my turn de but then me just go and help out lorx...its like...so the many teachers there larx...hahax...but the kids really haf lotsss to take home lorx...handcraft...tidbits...presents...lot horx...when me still their age also like that...hahax...well...they are still soooooo the cute lorx!!! lets see their photos...heex... weibin is choosing the song... so wat song did u choose???
okiex larx...lets sing...wo you ping an ru jiang he...must do actions worx...teaching...
not only teachers r teaching...some1 else also...heeex...
okiex...lets try out!
3 pretty gals plus 2 handsome guys...heeex...cute ritex...=p
its story time!!!
ah qi lao shi telling story..."so...one day..."
so the ren zhen worx...so the guai...heeex...
while children are doing craftwork...teachers are slacking...hahax...heeex...
dun siam...already inside...heeex...u are caught...hahahax...
aiyoyo...wat doing u...???
okiex...nvm...its present time!!!
wave ur foood!!!
they are sooooooo the cute ritex...of course larx...hahax...these are charis kids...!!!

wat do me really wan?

2008-05-03T11:53:00.002+08:00

a time...some one asked me..."wat do u really wan?"...actually...me duno...really duno...maybe for the time being is to deal with my 'o' levels...my family stuff and one more...hahax...mmm...duno lehx...really duno...okiex...veli the boliao...duno and duno and duno...wat in the world is me going to do...>.<...duno everyting...well...okiex...stop with the duno tingy...hahax...
guess wat...found a caring but shy angel in my school...sooooooo the cute!!! =p

lets continue...

2008-05-02T22:13:00.012+08:00

well...letsss continue...heeex...the celebration only starts at arnd 8plus...cuz waiting for mama de frens to cum then start celebrating...heex...then after that the "jialat" part comes...cleaning up...>.<...so the late le then still nida clean up...so the sianx...hahax...but still nid to...if not all the cockroaches come and find me sia...hahax... lets see the bday cake... lets sing happie birthday song!!! "happie bday 2 u...happie bday 2 u..."
quan jia fu...heeex...so good if reality is like that...
after that...guess wat we do...we play game...erm...its the toy in my "playrm"...heex...next bday is mine...heex...=p...happie nitex...nitex nitex...=p

happie bday to mama!!!

2008-05-02T19:55:00.003+08:00

HAPPIE BDAY TO MAMA!!! 2day is mama's bday! yayyy!!! hahax...so the excited...my ahma is here...aunt is here...so is one of my cousin...they are eating dinner now while me blogging...actually my mom ask me go and eat le but then all the tings there looks nt veri kai wei to me...so no appetite...heeex...
today is bday of mama...so of course me made a hp pouch for her...thanks to samantha's idea...if not me duno wat to do for my mother...hahax...thanks worx, samantha! let u see how it looks like...its seems well...erm...not veli nice but then me sew one kiex...only that thats a pocket of my old skirt that me cant wear...then the rest, me sew it up de...me last nitex sew until 1plus lorx...hahax...cant sleep anyways...hahax...heeex...
the front...a heart contains "ma"...me sew it up de worx...heex...
the back...veli the yi shu ritex...heeex...
will upload more of the celebration pictures ltr...heeex...shi mu yi dai worx...=p

"spring cleaning"...

2008-05-01T13:57:00.007+08:00

2day is May day!!! me no nida go school 2day!!! yay!!! and its spring-cleaning day!!! heeex...actually is half happie half nt happie de lorx...cuz me dun like cleaning up stuff...but me feel like cleaning up...hahax...mao dun ritex...but then no choice...gota clean...cuz tmr sumone cuming to my house...>.<...so the tiring sia...just finish cleaning my bedroom...didnt knw nida take sooooooo the long to finish it...hahax...its super messy de larx actually...but then after cleaning it, its like so the clean...me luv my bedrm...=p...heeex... this is my bedrm b4 me spring-clean my bed rm... floor of my bedrm... my study table...
abracadebra...............TaDa~!!!
the floor...
my study table...
the other table in my bedrm...
tis table actually is nt suppose to be in my bedrm de...but then cuz that time the other bedroom is rented to other ppl so the table nida put in my room...soooooo the cramp lorx...but xi guan le...so okiex lorx...heeex...=p...clean ritex...hahax...me just luv my bedroom...heeex...=p
and of course...me haf my new "playroom"...hahax...okiex larx...nt really a playroom...but then me haf a new toy! hahax...okiex...nvm...abit childish...hahax...lets see...!
tis is my new toy...
my bro acting cute there...hahax...but cute ritex...heex...
my bro...so lonely...playing all by himself...sis: ltr larx horx...after finish taking photo...heex...
after that me played with him...guess whos the winner...hahax...sis"yay!!! u owe me a drink..." hahax...well...that was wat we said...who lose must treat a drink...heex...yay!!! haf drink!!! hahax...xp

photo taking...

2008-04-29T18:23:00.004+08:00

2day is my last yr taking class photo...tis yr super unique lorx...even the principle and discipline master came to join us in our fun shot...hahax...so that means we haf all of our subject teachers plus mrs leong and mr razak...hahax...we veli the da pai horx...like that fun mahx...hahax...and sumore this is our last yr le...so must unique...heex...wonder how the photos look like...hahax...tink tis yr de photos will look the best bax...heex...and 2day my "hairdresser" help me clip up my fringe right on top...jasmine say look like cj7...>.<...hahax...wana knw that famouse "hairdresser"? hahax...just nice she is my gdgd fren...she is goh hweeleng...heex...wana see a human cj7? hahax... thats me...=p the real and cute cj7...hahax...tis is nicer...heex...
but then horx...me dun tink look like bax...but horrx...look like also nvm...hahax...cj7 is cute!!! hahax...heee...

napfa test...

2008-04-28T20:11:00.003+08:00

2day me went napfa test in the afternoon...actually me is on mc de larx...just went there to chou re nao...hahax...heex...quite fun de lorx...heex...cuz can support my fren mahx...but the weather 2day is super duper hot lorx...>.<...goodness me!!! me didnt do exercise me also perspire until duno like wat like that lorx...hahax...encouraging is actually is veli the fun and happie de lorx...so must encourage each other worx...heex...
then after that went home at arnd 5plus...me didnt haf lunch in the afternoon so half way thru, me super duper hungry...>.<...so after the nafa test, hui jing and athena accompany me to go to the mama shop to buy bread to eat...heex...then after that we went home together...
after we go out separate ways, at the traffic light there, me saw jinn chyau...tot he is still in sch...he told me that sch release early so can go home early...then in the end we walk home together since our house is only a road away...hahax...

project...

2008-04-27T20:59:00.009+08:00

in the afternoon, me went to hweeleng house to do project...sooo the fun...hahax...and also know lots of things...hahax...then duno y me accidentally press send the msg...sumore send wrong person larx...what in the world...?! me was so the gan chiong...>.<...hope really delete it without seeing it...goodness me...me today blur blur de...haiyo...cant like that lorx...anyways...yahx...enjoy the pics worx...nt alot larx...heex... tis is hweeleng computer room... aiyo...must look up mahx...heex...
say do project...but the com is msn...
and the paper is blank...>.<...oops... no larx no larx...got write something one lorx...heex...c? hweeleng so hardworking!
and of course...we are veli the happi...hahax...
went home arnd 5 plus plus...then me went to imm to find my mother and ah ma to eat something for my dinner...then went to my ah ma house again...today the weather is sooooooo the hot sia!!! why in the world like that....but still can take it...heex...

ah ma hse...

2008-04-26T23:02:00.016+08:00

tis evening me, bro and my mom went to ahma house...took lots of photos there...duno y my mom is in a taking photo mood...hahax...she took lotsss and lotsss of photos...hahax...enjoy worx...
my "mummy" was cooking...
oh my goodness!!! dun hit me!!!
my cousin with his dolphin...
my crazy bro...

my zi lian bro...shuai mahx???
look at my mom's face...obviously...nope...heex...
ke lian de bro...my mom, "abbish!!!"...my bro,"ouch!!! T.T"
enough of fighting...ahma and bro...
no fight no fight...smilex...bro and mama...
me and mom...
the 3 generations...=p...ahma...mama...me...!
bro and sis...=p...me luv this pic...heeex...
dinner time!!! sooo the crowded at that corner...>.<... was irritated by the eldest sis...T.T...so the sad sia...haix...shooo!!!
after dinner...accompany my ahma a little while more then we went to buy my bro pants...he say no more pants to wear le...so went to boonlay there and buy for him...but the thing is that...he didnt go lorx...>.<...but anyways...we still bought it for him...then also bought socks...every morning finding socks isnt a veli fun thing...dun wana play hide and seek with the socks...cuz dun wana be late for sch and run around the field for duno how many times...>.<...so bought 3 pairs for my bro and 3 pairs for myself...then after that, we went home...
haf a swit swit dream!!! nitex nitex!!!

continue continue...emos...hahax...

2008-04-26T11:58:00.007+08:00

let me continue...heeex...shirley edited some of the photos that we took at the stadium...emos...hahax...
emo shirly and me...

our footsteps...

shirley's back...
o...k...i...e...x...t...a...t...s...t...h...e...e...n...d...h...e...e...e...x...

mum mum...

2008-04-25T20:03:00.012+08:00

2day me had my eng paper 1 and 2...doing all those make me hungry...hahax...hope that me can pass my eng...dun wana fail that...>.<...
2day after the exam shirley went to my hse b4 we go ri ben chun mum mum...cuz me nida change clothes...heex...veli the worth it worx!!! pay the admission fee le then can eat wateva u wan for free...but that is only frm mon to fri de 2.30pm to 5.30pm...u can eat until u explode also no one cares lorx...hahax...after eating, we went to take pic at the stadium...sum "emo" photos taken...hahax...but its a fun day...enjoy worx...hahax...
so...this is the place...

the menu...

tissue packet...>.<...heex... yummie food!!!

guess who this is...heex...
me and shirley...
me...=p
the stadium...
shirley with psp...
continue ltr...=p

science centre...

2008-04-23T19:34:00.012+08:00

2day after sch went science centre...5n1 and 5n2...quite interesting...knowing abt all the genes stuff...bio is so the interesting de lorx...hahax...after the lesson...hweeleng, atiqah, jasmine and me went arnd to look for a place to do our cme project...and we found it! at place that looks like "kitchen"...hahax...looks cool and cute...! the last min we change our "slimming pill" story to "shortie" story...hahax...its actually super duper the short...as in the story line larx...hahax...>.<...then after that hweeleng went to ask rui xing to help take photo for the four of us then duno y jun kai and sheng poh also came...so we took together...then after that kena sabo...>.<...then the funnie thing is that...y suddenly so the many ppl came?! hahax...okiex...the scene is quite chaotic larx...hahax...well...here are some pictures that we took in the lab... atiqah and me... jasmine and hweeleng...
all 4 of us...and one guai guy puting up the hand behind...hahax...
atiqah and me...
jasmine and hweeleng...
atiqah and me in the dark but glowing shirts...hahax...
four of us plus yuk chang, jun kai and sheng poh...
end end le...sabo pic no see no see...hahax...>.<...

run...dizzy...seeing stars...>.<

2008-04-22T17:41:00.006+08:00

today had my 2.4km run...duno my timing yet cuz me go home l e then they put the timing there...so the sad...T.T...hahax...the guys are soooo the fast lorx...hahax...
after me finish running...me see stars all over above my head...hahax...>.<...soooo the dizzy!!! it took some time for the stars to disappear...day cant haf stars lorx...hahax...>.<...but after drinking water and some resting okiex le larx...hahax...when me going home that time, me was dragging my legs all along until me reach home lorx...>.<...reach home beta le...nt that bad le... photos taken with hweeleng sum time ago...heex...
taken it with jasmine and hweeleng after cme project...

end end...nida bath...so stinkiex...>.<

thankieeex...!!!

2008-04-21T15:42:00.002+08:00

nida thank u all...for the chocolates and flower that u pass it to me...thanks...=p...and sorriex for the bad pressing of the ppt slides on sun...hahax...

horrible, terrible and vegetabe...!!!

2008-04-20T20:33:00.002+08:00

knw wat...just now when my mom and me were going home frm my grandma's house(toh guan) crossing the road at the junction, a driver(sga 6155) honk at us when the traffic light appears to be green man walking...we were super shock larx...our hearts almost dropped out lorx...oh my goodness...how can she like that...it's not that we were nt walking...we were walking...and sumore, she looked at us sooooo the fierce lorx...but still cant figure out why isit our fault when we are suppose to walk and she is suppose to wait...haix...thank God nth happen...if not horx...me cant guarrentee nth will happen lorx...>.<...cuz my mom is like so the angry and shocked and alot of nt veli gd feelings...h.a.h.a.x...>.<...

happie!!!

2008-04-20T02:26:00.002+08:00

guess wat...our fren, deqing jue zhi le!!! yay!!! hahax...so the happie for him! heys...congratz cuz u got the present frm God le! and JIAYOU worx...hahax...
today, not only the kids are noisy...our cg is super noisy lorx...>.<...nt only that...alot of ppl not in gd mood...when me reach zx, ly asked me...did me had a quarrel wif the others....>.<...me was shocked also...tot me did something wrong...but then they had their reasons larx...anyways...2day the kids played the penguin club...hahax...even no computer also can play...well...children are children...tot of me when me was at their age...tink me also like that bax...hahax...but come to tink of it...it looks funny and...duno wat to say...but still at that time, me was a child lorx...children must haf fun de...hahax...heex...

it's soooooooo the touching!!!!!!

2008-04-20T02:22:00.005+08:00

though it says try not to cry when reading it, me still cry...hahax...cuz it's toooooo touching!!! enjoy worx...maybe u've read it b4 thru email le...but me still wana post it here...hahax...
When you're down to nothing, God is up to something. '

This is beautiful! Try not to cry.
She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'

Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?'

The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair ?' the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke . Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You'. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad th inking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom, God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent Th e Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'

soooo the sweeeeet!

2008-04-19T12:06:00.002+08:00

tis is a story that my fren told me to read on his fren's blog...it's a really nice story...read it...sorriex that me copy and paste...>.<...

Take nothing for granted. Second chance hardly comes by.When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your ArmsOn my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat.My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago. The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money.When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said: you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs.Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.When we were just married, my wife said: Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it.No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.This was the means of my entertainment. One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month’s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile.I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, it seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce.My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

wet and hot sports day...

2008-04-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

the day that me sort of had been waiting for...sports day!!! tis yr is kinda special cuz first ting is that, tis yr is my last yr in huayi...then tis yr is my first yr involved in tele-matches...it's super duper fun lorx...hahax...it went well and successful! and also...tis yr haf tug of war! although the gals team of our class suddenly duno go where...as in...actually teacher say that they still haf one match but in the end duno y dun haf then my fren say 4e1 de actually dun haf then duno y suddenly pop out from no where...hahax...any ways...5N2 guys team got the 3rd place! nt that bad okiex...hahax...the grass is super slippery at one side cuz today raining...so they sumhow slip at some point of times...but they still got 3rd place! so happie for them...hahax...congratz worx...hahax...=p...
me was perspiring all the way today man...>.<...the weather soooooo the hot!!! and time pass so the slow in the morning...but arnd 9 plus, it seems the time flew pass...hahax...tis yr is the most happening one...=p...happie happie!
wanted to go carrer four at suntec after sports day de...but then shirley got heat stroke so in the end didnt go anywhere...so the sad lorx...>.<...then went home taking bus 99 at clementi the bus interchange there...actually jasmine ask me to take 198 with her then after that me tot...so many ppl cuming out...confirm plus chop there will be no place to board the bus de...and then nida wait like duno how long...>.<...so in the end me went home myself lorx...as for atiqah...mmm...duno where she go...notice her duno where when we walk out of the gate then ask the others...one of them say she walk to the other side...then she say mayb the father or whoever went to fetch her...then nvm lorx...hahax...
anyways...me home le...but anyone wana go out? hahax...

havoc...late...tired...stomach weird weird...

2008-04-14T14:18:00.002+08:00

on sat, it was cheng min and my turn to take care of the children...havoc arnd there but very the fun cuz can play and interact with the children...but of course...at the end of the day, me tired!!! with the children arnd, it feels like so the fun and nice!

on sun...it's SAMANTHA BIRTHDAY!!! hahax...HAPPI BLESSED BIRTHDAY!!! hope u haf lotsssssssss of fun! hahax...GOD WILL ALWAYS BLESS U!!! THANKIEX U TOOOOOOOO!!!

me 2day haf gastric pain!!! think is bax...cuz my fren told me is gastric pain...hahax...actually me also duno y haf gastric pain larx...but tink again...tink is eat too much chilli and had heart burn last nitex...then today nt feeling well...guai guai de...>.<...but after that, feeling much much beta le...heex...=p

*******oh...and duno whether u all know or not...me haf tag box...TAG ME LEHX!!! the ting that u nida click on is the one on top...veli the small words de then the colour of the fonts is like sooooooo the light...heex...psps arx...me duno how to change it....>.<...

water...bomb!!!

2008-04-11T16:42:00.002+08:00

today, there was a trial run of the tele-match that will be played on sports day...think it will be super duper crazy and fun on next fri(sports day)...hahax...
we used water gun for our game! hahax...tis is the first time me involve in tis kind of tingy...hahax...so the fun!!! and after the trial run, we play ourselves...and of course...we are drenched by each other's water gun...wanhoe was the wet-est...hahax...pour all water of the water gun on him...then he was shot by every one with the water gun...hahax...duno y he was aimed...but yahx...in the end all of us are wet...sort of...hahax...today is alrdy so the crazy and fun...on the sports day itself, it will be double the craziness and fun...sumore, the whole 5N2 will be involved in it...!!! yay!!! hahax...enjoy and dun be angry worx...hahax...

its war time...!!!

2008-04-07T18:58:00.002+08:00

first, me wana thank...darryl, wenjie and chun quan...! u all really help me lotssss!!! hahax...
well...yesterday me at zx haf a war from 2.30pm to duno wat time with my math paper...hahax...so the difficult!!! sec4 and sec 5 de diff is tis le...hahax...actually nt only me having war...all the youth are having war with their homework...its just that mine is super duper big big one...hahax...then horx...ppl involved in the big big war are...my 3 "chers"...and me...hahax...our head is going to explode on that day...tink not only that day...its gona be every week...heex...hahax...darryl even tink until he hungry...hahax...sorriex 4 that and thankiex...super duper appreciated, "chers"!!! fun studying with ppl actually...
2day my class super duper crazy plus noisy...thought today is monday so haf monday blues...but every one is so the noisy...>.<...hahax...

sending...

2008-04-05T13:35:00.004+08:00

last nitex the church went to airport to send lin gang off...erm...nt the whole church larx...heex...aniways....actually me didnt see him walk into the entrance and then go off larx...cuz too late le...so samantha n me went home after he check in...then some of the youths ton there...but that was a veli the last min tingy larx...so yahx lorx...
me reach home at arnd 12 plus then after that me bath, do housework then qt then wait for my hair to dry then slp...hahax...well...last nitex we missed the last train that is heading to boon lay...>.<...so the sad lorx...hahax...then in the end we took taxi home from tanah merah...its like...SO THE EXPENSIVE...!!!!!!! goodness me! me will never ever ever do tis again man...tis is nt a veli gd thingy...either me stayover or go home earli...earli as in at least me still can catch the last last train home larx...my goodness...hahax...well...thats ci ji lorx...>.<...hahax...XD...
tis morning woke up at arnd 8 then go to blk 5hundred plus there with my mother to eat breakfast and buy somethings...me bought 2 dresses...one is $8 and the other one is $10...quite nice...one is retro...hahax...duno y but me like retro tings some how...at times larx...heex...but me also like modern things...hahax...

aiyoyo

2008-04-02T14:38:00.002+08:00

first ting is that...aiyoyo...cannot make it larx...too mani too mani le lorx...

too mani homework..too mani tests...too mani to mani...haix...hahax...

just hope that me can just fly pass this period of time and go take my o lvl exam lorx...like that then me can go genting...go church camp...go youth camp...and go lotssss of places....

yesterday me went to jurong east with hweeleng...guess wat we do there...NEOPRINTs...!!! hahax...so the nice larx...tis is most piao liang de lorx..cuz alot of biao qing there...hahax...well...wana take more and more neo prints in the future...me wana take it with all my frens...=p...hahax...fun lorx...

hahax...me too playful le...>.<...but then will still study de larx...heex...this yr super duper important sia...hahax...

simpLe...compLicated...

2008-03-31T20:29:00.003+08:00

when i was born...my life was so simple...me just had to go along with the instructions that whoeva gave me and continue with my life...but as me turn older each year...nt easy...really...things are getting complicated since primary 2...moved house to j.w. ...until when me was at the end of primary school, graduating...thought my life would be easier...moreover, i was going into the youths...but it's not as easy as i think...following the rules will not be as easy as it is when we grow up and get in contact with the complicated world... will get so ganchiong, wanting to get involved in everyting...to a stage where i found out that more and more challenges and obstacles are waiting for me and adapting alot of changes make me haf mixed feelings at times...asking myself, "what m i suppose or going to do next?" make me nervous and scare...>.<...met new challenges and problems to solved...felt interesting...vexing...anxious...about the solutions...trying to figure out what is next everytime...but every single time this sentence came to me..."duno what will happen next, but what i knw is that God is always beside me guiding me, protecting me and opening a path for me..."...God is always encouraging me through the people, things and the Bible surrounding me...=p...what m i going to do without God...can never imagine...>.<...
Thank God for EVERYTHING...=P...i luv You!!!

making it done...

2008-03-30T23:22:00.005+08:00

2day we went pastamania mum mum...heex...the pizza taste weird weird...hahax...aniways...thats nt the point...hahax...heex...
2day me and the bigger youths decided to haf a strict and higher expectations of ourselves...in all areas of our lives...zl went home so early...aiyo...missed out lorx...aniways...tink if we haf decided wat to do le...we should just do it ritex lorx...knw that its a difficult process but then wats after that? i mean...how to say lehx...but lots of things and feelings in me now...really want to say it all out in one go but then...>.<...where should i start? what should i do? actually b4 2day de sharing...me haf already told myself wat i want myself to do or be in this yr...lots of changes and wat i haf to do is so much but limited time...having stricter lifestyle is nt as bad as i think at times...be prepared in wateva we do lorx...my expectations for myself is like...erm...duno how to say lehx...erm...one point is that...overcome my own feelings...as in the worldly feelings...or can say its the bad feelings...erm...bad description...erm...never mind...>.<...aniways...my main point is that...OVERCOME!!!
btw...erm...just found out that the title that me wrote is like...erm...no link lehx...hahax...>.<...-.-..

uniquely family...

2008-03-29T12:11:00.002+08:00

guess wat...this morning this thought just came into my mind...my family is so special and unique...in all ways...no matter when or where...special and unique in the sense that we can haf lots of fun at times and communicate 'properly' at times...hahax...but of course we haf arguement time...so when tis time arrive, it's chaos...hahax...but me treasure every ting...my mom's nagging although makes me go crazy but then me just tink that her nagging is just as precious to me when compare to the time when we go out...me treasure the quarrel between my bro and me...although when quarreling we are super duper angry, me just like it...like the time when my father is fierce...scary but thats a treasure to me...most importantly...
ME LUV MY FAMILY!!! hahahax...

fine...

2008-03-28T15:37:00.002+08:00

went to polyclinic and haf a xray done...Thank God that the fall didnt do any harm to the bone...so now onli waiting for my next appt at NUH...that will be like...erm...2weeks from now? just finish watching one litre of tears...its sooooo the TOUCHING!!! cry every episode...hahax...but tis is really veri encouraging...=p...mmm...gota tink of another show to watch...hahax...love watching shows...hahax...
had put down some of the stuff that me nida put down...like things that me cant change...tink like that will be beta bax...=p

FaLL...

2008-03-25T15:05:00.002+08:00

had a fall in the toilet on sunday...hahax...haix...who ask me to be so playful...then in the end me fall down lorx...hahax...>.<...at that point of time my butt hurts larx...-.-...well...aniways...hahax...the effect only appear on mon...me cant haf big actions if not...PAIN...!!! hahax...the place where me fall down and where the pain is is super duper diff...but the falling down place is only painful today...>.<...-.-...hahax...well...like that lorx...hahax...
aniways...going to wait till my appt date then go see doc...heex...

came back...& stuff...

2008-03-21T22:52:00.003+08:00

yaaayyy!!! people went to thai came back today le!!! hahax...me so the miss them larx...and they are finally back! heex...we went to airport and fetch them straight after the prayer meeting of the Good Friday...then after fetching them, we went makan at T1...then after that we went vivo...again...hahax...seems like they like the place soooo the much...tot they would be exhausted after the flight and want to go home straight away after finish eating but then surprisingly...they agreed to go out and "play"...hahax...
Last night me stayover at ling yun house then she help me wif my blog...thanks to her...me change my blog skin...and me haf tag box le...hahax...okiex...me kinda bai chi at tis stuff...aniways...the word for the tag box is like sooooooo the small until u cant see...sumwhr in the middle on top...tag worx...heex...too small le larx...but try to find it...nt that difficult to find de larx...heex...

yay...!!! woohooo...!!!

2008-03-20T23:57:00.004+08:00

today is thursday and me at lingyun house!!! hahax...after the tanfang to suyu auntie house(not suya...is suyu horx...), me went to ling yun house to stay over...hahax...cuz we tot we are going straight to airport and fetch them...but then the prayer is in the afternoon...so in the end we haf to go to zx first then go to airport and fetch them lorx...heex...sooooo the happi that me can stay over...hahax...and of course...tmr our dear bro and sis from thai are coming back to singapore!!! YAY!!! hahax...okiex...me gone crazy...hahax...cuz me so the happi they are back mahx...when they are not here, it's so the obvious and we so the miss them larx...just hope that me can go also...if me not schooling at tis point of time, me will definitely go de lorx...cuz my mom say that she can sponsor me go mahx...like that me no nida worriex abt the money problem le lorx...but then me school reopen le...so the miss thai...tis time go up the mountain...haf a new experience...heard that ppl are getting sick and stuff...hope that u ppl are alright and the activities there go on smoothly...hahax...JIAYOUU o!!! and...really thank God for letting us haf the opportunity to go thai and do missionary trip and work there...THANK U!!!

hungry...>.<...heex...

HoMe...

2008-03-10T20:56:00.003+08:00

2jie came on tue and she went home on sat le...so the miss her...but then shes going to cum back soon...cuz of the interview at the univeristy...pray that she can get in...then she can study in sg...then she can join me le...heex...its going to be so the fun! heex...

BeLoNg...

2008-02-29T15:25:00.003+08:00

me dun feel like me belong here...y...?

ToLd...

2008-02-27T14:35:00.004+08:00

atiqah and me told our form teacher abt our accounting teacher le...b4 telling...actually me hate it and just hope that me can tell the principal or whoeva that can solve this qn...but then think again...he is quite pityful larx...tink he is at least 60 plus le bax...but then bo bian...tink telling our form teacher abt tis is beta...at least let him knw that doing all tis is nt ritex de lorx...and we knw wat he is doing lorx...well...hope he does knw it already...actually didnt tell the complete story to form teacher but then nt really enough evidence u c...so in the end we only tell partly...

cOnCuSsSs...

2008-02-21T14:35:00.003+08:00

hmmm...although me like doing math but then horx...me dun really like trigonometry lorx...hahax...2day do until me going crazy lorx...>.<...hahax...it's really difficult larx...but then still manage to finish it...so still quite okiex larx...yesterday is the trigo. test but then cuz of the whole class did nt gd then theres another test on trigo next week...haiyo...going nbonkers...hahax...veli difficult to see lehx... tis sat is yf de wedding le...every one is so the busy doing the preparation 4 tis sat...the bride and the groom are gona be veli the pretty and handsome...heex...so the happi 4 them...=p

aPpT...

2008-02-14T14:42:00.003+08:00

tmr me no nida go sch...cuz gotta go hospital appointment...mmm...think going 2 do x-ray again...haix...always do the same ting but then they also duno wat is going on...recently my back pain like no body business like that...haix...it pain horx, me also can feel it de lorx...hahax...my back mahx...aiya...hahax..okiex...me crapping...dun care...hahax...my chemistry improve by lots sia!!! me got 83marks for my chemistry...yay!!! hahax...tot me will get only veli little marks cuz my teacher say me cannot do the qn...but then me can lorx...tink he see wrong paper le larx...hahax...aniways...me happi and satisfied abt wat me got...4 the time being larx...me still nida keep improving...=p...nida get gdgd grades 4 my scary 'o' levels...hahax...well...it is scary...erm...to me larx...hahax...

hOw CaN LiKe ThAt De...>.<

2008-02-04T19:09:00.001+08:00

me was given a project to do a week ago and then now the thing is like...half way thru only when me and my grp is going to present tmr...ahhh...how...wat in the world m i going to do...and why in the world is my grp the first one to present...haix...too much pressure recently that is pointing at me but duno wat and where...hahax...cant believe it...even one of my fren in sch can see it...me had alrdy trying to hide that duno wat face away from them le lorx...hahax...anyways...really nida find out and 4 the time being, me gota finish my project b4 kena saw by my teacher using a hacksaw...hahax...but knw that she wont use a hacksaw cuz shes a eng teacher...hahax...

bLuEsSs EvErY wHeRe...!!!

2008-01-29T14:38:00.001+08:00

starting of the week only and me nt only haf mon blues...but tue blues...everyday and everywhere blues...hahax...duno y but me scare of going back to school...mayb cuz of facing my frens or wateva bax...totally haf no idea...oh...or mayb is cuz theres too much test in one week...every week also test...but me haf gd news...hahax...me 2day gt my POA results...me got full marks for it...!!! yay!!! cant believe it...cuz that day is the day that me dun feel well at all and haf 3 tests in a row de lorx...then 2day haf geo test...actually can put it tmr de but then others wan the test 2day so no choice but to do it 2day lorx...but then my relieve teacher actually told us that she made a mistake when she was teaching us the geo last week...-.-...the triangle tingy wif the pri, sec and tertiary industries tingy...haix...but then okiex larx...hope that me can pass...cuz me didnt pass my geo b4 since sec 3...if didnt pass at least also can get 3 marks from the triangle tingy bax...hahax...didnt really haf high expectations for my geo...unlike my other subs...well...will work harder cuz tis yr is my final yr and my 'o' level yr so cant go wrong...hahax...
oh...one more thing...me found out that 'sulphur' is more daring le lorx...

yAy...LaTeZzZ...

2008-01-27T23:30:00.001+08:00

actually, the yay and the latezzz no link de...hahax...2 different ting...heex...
the yay...is...charlene is back from her volley ball training at KL...hahax...she bought chocolate potato chips 4 us...hahax...find it interesting cuz it's sumting new...and most importantly, it taste goooooood...!!! heeex...thankiex, charlene...
the latezzz is cuz me went home late...almost kena scolding...hahax...but fortunately...my mom is aslp and my dad only ask y me late and thats all...hahax...it was so close...hahax...
theres one more thing...my bowling skill...CMI...!!! hahax...cant believe me had so low points lorx...>.<...will train harder...hahax... there's common test tis duno wat day...so the scare...>.<...the feeling is so diff from last yr...every test me also scare that me will fail lorx...just afraid that me wont pass my sec 5 and that's it le...haix...but me will work hard hard de...heex... chinese new yr is near!!! yay!!! o...kiex...another yay...hahax...but it's fun lorx...sumore this yr de chinese new yr is the long week end larx...so it's going to be so the fun!!! can go play like duno wat le...heex... ENJOY...EVERYONE!!!

oOh...nOo...!!!

2008-01-22T14:21:00.001+08:00

just found out 2day that me haf 3 tests in one day...one the 24 jan...goodness me...!!! the teachers haf gone crazy...hahax...the HOD had already said that max. can only haf 2 tests in one day...but then in the end haf 3...tink the next thing me knw is that more and more testsss are coming my way...really can feel the diff between sec 4 and 5...
guess wat...2day my POA teacher is trying to match make the whole grp at my side...hahax...xD...suddenly de lorx...cant believe that larx...hahax...actually me nt involve in it de but then in the end cuz of the one sitting in front of me said me and the other guy then the teacher turn to me...>.<...tats how me kena involved...hahax...the whole period me was like laughing like duno wat lorx...hahax....anyways...although today 2day is a long day, it's a fun and happi day 4 me... me going KL in march...for social studies trip...only 3 person, including me, go...think it's going to be fun...but theres one thing...it's going to crash into sat and sun...>.<...cant believe it...me cant go tq and church again...>.<... theres an experience yesterday...as me was walking home from my grandma house(near IMM) back to my home, me was listening to the shi ge in my hp...me haf a veri deep gan chu...when listening to the songs and the lyrics, me suddenly feel that theres nth that is bad or sad things in my heart and the surroundings are nt impt 2 me animore...the only ting me wana do is to spread the gospel and be more like JESUS and haf a transparent life...thats y me like walking home...can listen to songs without any disruptions...hahax...

wHy SoOo MaNi.......???

2008-01-19T11:18:00.000+08:00

the coming week haf alooooootssssss of testsssss lorx...think almost all the subject also haf lorx...cant they eva put in diff week...haix...gona peng...hahax...aniways...think still can manage bax...but tis yr is gona be realli veli the scari...cuz it's 'o' level...the teachers always say until veli the jialat...but it's the fact larx...frm 'n' level to 'o' level is a big big gap that me nida jump...me will study realli veli veli the hard in order to get into the course i wan...heex...
recently so mani things happen...so the happening...hahax...but my mom de temper came back as per normal le...hahax...so she is nt really that angry le...still veli the naggy but me just love the way she is cuz thats how she is...and she is more happi now than b4...i think...>.<...heex...

dYiNg...PrEsSuRiZiNg...

2008-01-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

me going to die of the stress that mama gib me...always asking me the same qn again and again...and 2day she got so angry and...just scold and shout...she say we don haf feelings one and we dun look tis home as important as it is...even she divorce wif papa we also no feelings de...y in the world is she feeling like tis? how can i help her? God, pls change her...pls help her...cuz only u can do someting to her...cuz me want my family to be the one in the past...God, u knw how my family is...pls help me...pls help my bro...pls help my mom...pls help my dad...all of them...even ah ma they all...me duno wat 2 do...really duno wat to do...God, pls tell me wat me can do...God, i'm so scare...really i m...scare that my home will be gone...scare that we will go separate ways...me dun wan that to happen...God, it's so pressurizing...

AfTeR e CaMpSsSsSsS..........

2007-12-30T18:44:00.000+08:00

for the last 2 weeks of december...me went to church camp and youth camp...both are veri busy but veli the fun!!!
the church camp is at melaka de makhota hotel...me went there and came back wif one grp of church members taking the public bus...its fun...taking 170 all the way...when me reach there, me was so the happy cuz theres lots of new ppl that i can make frens wif...and of course...thru the mysterious angel game...me knw them in an easier way...heex...not only can me knw the youth but also the elders...me knw more abt them...especially qiong yu auntie and jin lan auntie...cuz they were my mysterious dui xiang...hahax...heex...in my grp, we gota do a skit...me act as the toy doll...so the fun...anyways...me act cute all the way in the camp jiu dui le...hahax...me like the amazing race arnd the melaka...actually is all near makhota hotel onli...heex...but this is really challenging larx...and fun too!!! then on the nite that haf the charis cmf gt talent, 0203 haf a dance...it was so the successful larx...then we gota dance on the last nitex also...YAY!!! hahahahahax.....me like that dance lorx...heex...but the diff is that we haf the chance to haf a hair do from valarie...all of us are so the handsome and pretty...heex...but then when we untie the rubber bands and pins...disaster arrived...hahax...their hair is like just exploded from duno wat lorx...especially yiqi de...but then again, it was nice also lorx...except me...nth happen...hahax...so happi...hahax...me so the bad...hahax...paisei arx...heex...then when we are abt to leave the hotel, our rm key LOST!!!! cant ever blive it...>.<...but in the end, it was found in ly's bag...-.-...and that is when we paid the 200rm and reach sg le lorx...but nvm larx...over le mahx...when came back to sg, we gota walk all the way from the malaysia checkpoint to sg checkpoint lorx...-.-...my bag was like so the heavy...and me was pulling my leg all along lorx...hahax...too heavy le...then my back veli the pain...cant take it...tried to carried it wif my hands...guess wat...the next day me haf muscle ache...hahax.......but overall, me LUV church camp!!!!!!!
well...2 days after church camp, me went to youth camp...think this yr is kinda rushing cuz actually the christmas eve nitex to christmas, haf carolling...but me cant go...if nt me can dun tink of going out le lorx...hahax...me went to the advance party of the youth camp...me was like...so the excited larx...heex...my grp's name is luo man di ya...actually is luo man di ke which is the chi of romantic but in the end change the ke to ya...and y is it romantic lehx...cuz the theme is project bgr...easi riteeeexxx...heex...me like the water games...although it was so the muddy but cuz of the rain..it make it more fun...then when we are at the beach to fill up our water bombs, guess wat we've found...a dead sotong...-.-...and we put it into the water bomb...but of course we didnt throw at ppl larx...if nt tink that person is like going to pain until like duno wat and will be really veli the stinky lorx...hahax...on the finale nitex, 0203 dance again! hahax...it's sumhow kinda short and incomplete lorx.....heex...cuz the music is veli soft so cant hear then ly 4gt at the back she gota say sumting...so dance only...the back...cut!!! heeeeex...the youth camp is so the fun!!! although it was kinda tired and busy...me enjoyed it lotssssssssssss......heex...just LUV it!!!!!!! and sumore, me knw more new frens...and then so the happi that zong sheng, zheng wei, zhi an and zhang yang go and say their jian zheng...so the happi that they learn new things there...

PPL! TAKE CARE OF URSELVES HORX...! DUN GET SICK...MUST BE HEALTHY!!!=P

sTrEsSsSs SiA...!!!

2007-12-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

think me going to go crazy or mental disorder sooner or later...ahhhhhhhhhhhh.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so the stressful and presurizing sia! how fortunate me nt the only child...mayb this is y God gave me a brother as a gift bax...he is consider as a really good bro le if compared to others larx...well...really duno wat to do just now...and now duno how to describe into words...-.-...anyways...me really felt beta after typing all this out...kind of a diary to me...online de...but log in only once a month...hahax...

TiRiNg DaY...

2007-10-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

i had nt enough slp since sat nite...cuz my mom cant slp then me watch tv wif her until 1 plus...>.<...then the next day me wake up wif my slpy eyes...then on that nite me slp at arnd 11pm...ahhh...sooo the tired sia...then on mon i still neet to wake up at 6am to go to my mom stall at SAFTI...>.<...i was yawning all the way lorx...hahax...anyway, i had a fun day...then my bro got cut by a chopper on his index finger...loss lotsss of blood(to me alot larx...)heex...its like...so the scary larx...but now not so bad le larx...stop the bleeding then put plaster then now okiex le...but b4 tis his wound will nt stop bleeding so the blood keep cuming out even though the plaster is there...it took quite some time to stop...but now...>>>...no problemo le lorx...hahax...
juz now in the evening, my student, Andy, called me...he asked me a math qn...actually is 3 qnsss...i was like...why in the world ask me at this point of time...>.<...y cant he ask me tmr when i go his house for tuition...but anyway, i do until juz now then finish...so long time didnt do tis type of qn le..do until my head going BABOOOM...!!!! exploding le lorx...me ask alot of frens for help...heex...bo bian mahx...me duno plus lazy to think...heex...my bro also help me do...didnt knw he can be so into math...hahax...anyway(gt alot of anyway horx...heex...>.<,he did quite well larx...=p
'N' level finally......FINISH LE...!!! now waiting for my results...duno when going to cum out...me so excited but at the same time, anxious...heex...duno whether me can be promoted to sec 5 or nt...but most probably can larx...think so...i hope and want every one in this batch can passsssss!!! at least a pass larx...then can g sec 5 mahx...heex...
yay!!! finally cut down 2 kgs le...heex...a little sot sot horx...but then veri the gd le lorx...1 wk cut down 2 kg...nt bad le lorx...heex...=p...now my aim is 48kg...cuz my mom and me haf sort of a race...see who can get to 48kg by the end of december then the person who lost will gib the other one $100 to but clothes...alot lorx...hahax...sounds a little bit lame rite...but this is a gd way to motivate myself...cuz gt competitor mahx...like that will push urself more...heex...
okiex le larx...me veli veli veli the tired le larx...nitex nitex...=p...

aCtUaL 'N' LeVeL BeGiNsss...>.<

2007-09-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

ooooohhhh nooooooo.....tmr is my actual 'N' level le...!!! me sooooo the scare!!! scare that my mind suddenly went blank...scare that me duno how to do the qn...scare that me cannot make it to sec 5 next yr...scare that....aiiyaa...tooooooo many of this scarry feelings le...now in my mind is filled with fears...but me will rely on God and pray to God...
tmr is mother tongue paper 1 and 2...tue is mother tongue paper 3 and social studies which is the subject that i feared most...and wed is english paper 1 and 2...me cant believe it...the paper 1 is 2 hrs lorx...me usually will finish it very fast...faster than usual...now the paper is even longer...oh no...going to sit there until my butt rots...>.<...hahax...
PRAY PRAY PRAY!!!!!!!!!! me need prayers and need God's help...me really want to pass my 'N' level with rainbow colours...me need confidence...that is wat i always lack of...self confidence...my teachers always say that...>.<...
me haven cut my nails lorx...scare later gt spot check...hahax...okiex...enough of those scarry thoughts le...need to go prepare le...buaix...=p

pRiLiM ReSuLtS...

2007-08-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

Finally...my results are out! all have improve but my POA deprove...ahhh...hahax...but then like that also nt that bad larx...nt really deprove until fail...but then deprove quite alot lehx...sad lorx...total L1R4 is 18 points...me wana get better than that lehx...cuz the paper are all nt that difficult mahx...so me aim L1R4 is less than 10 points...me gt 2A, 1B,2C,1D...me dun wan that D...hahax...
me think improve the most is my social studies and my chemistry...cuz social studies from a fail(F9) to a C6...then my chemistry from a D7 to a B4...nt that bad rite...although my geography is still fail but then me from 13/50 to 19/50...improve 6 marks lorx...okiex larx...nt that bad larx...can de larx...
think since during the prelim, atiqah is so the weird lorx...duno whats going through her mind...dun wan to tell me how me do sumthing...think today break record lorx...think we didnt say until 15 or 20 sentences bax...pro rite...knw today me also at fault larx...cuz me duno y my mood was totally down and theres anger inside me...but...haix...duno larx...how in the world am i going to solve the prob...-.-...duno...me really duno...

TiMe PaSsEs So ThE fAsT!

2007-07-05T14:33:00.000+08:00

wohooo...now is already july le...so the fast! and my oral exam is next tuesday...me felt alittle scared lorx...cuz heard frm my frens they say the topic that say is quite difficult...then tmr haf social studies test...the subject that me dislike most...haix...me really duno how me going to make it tmr...
one more thing...all of my three teachers, mrs seetoh(form teacher/english teacher), miss foo(co-form teacher) and mdm fong(POA teacher)...resign le...!!! me soooooooooo the sad larx...how can like that jiu abandon us de...hahax...T.T...me want them back! well...not only me lorx...the whole class also want lorx...cuz now the class is going bazar!!! sooooooooo the miss them!!!
me had totally no idea wat had happen to me last nite...my temper just went all the way up and duno becuz of wat ever reason...me cried...although didnt really scold or shouted at anyone...at that moment me felt really pek cek...! but me guess maybe the reason is me cuz too stress le larx...the school work is really making me crazy...think going to faint sooner or later...especially my combine humanities...then my parents are also pressing me veli the hard...so me is like...two sides(school and house) are sitting on me until.......aiya...duno how to say larx...
on last fri...me meet weiwen at jurong east to help me wif my school work...but in the end me didnt do any question on it...me just hope that time can pass so the fast even me also duno whats going on...

cOmPuTeR cOuRsE...nEw VeNdOr...

2007-05-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

on the friday tat had just past is the end of the computer course that me attend...that course is like so the interesting larx...me like it...especially when going to the Funan Centre to complete the task that the instructors had given to us...so the fun...me also dismantle the two different type of PCs...then put it back again...it's like...quite new to me...didnt dismantle PC before...heex...then when me got hm me told papa that me dismantle the PC then he told me..."dun u ever dismantle my PC horx...!" heex...well...me not that boliao lorx...anyway, me haf more important things to do...=p...then when end of the course, we took photos wif all our instrutors...me still haven receive the photos lehx...so excited to get it...
then on the same day...it is also the last day for the vendor to be in huayi le...the food is cheap except the malay stall...not really very nice to eat but still can eat larx...well...me like the sambal chilli...heex...my favourite...well...if haf chilli then any food me also can eat le larx...heex...no need to be so fussy de larx...just to get myself full only mahx...well...me also took photo beside the canteen...also haven get it...hope can get it soon...heex...
today some of the ppl in hua en go to the place where huaen mayb in ...me juz luv that place...me mean...that place is big is one thing...then also can do alot things and also no time limit...heex...but also need to tink about other tings lorx...like the transport...and how we are going to buy that place down...but me just hope that me hua en can be there in the future...heex...anyway, all these just let God take the decision and lead us to where He wants us to be lorx...
me very happy cuz me in HUAEN! me luv HUAEN!

AhHh!!! NiGhTmArE!!!

2007-05-15T11:50:00.000+08:00

me dreamt of myself died on sunday nite...at that point of time...me duno what to do...but did learn lesson on that nite...
on that nite...me was in my grandma's room watching tv wif my ah ma then suddenly me saw the channel changed without me pressing the remote control...then saw my heart beat and my ahma heart beat...also can see when me is going to die and that was when me knw that me is going to die faster than ahma cuz my heart beat is slowing down so fast that me juz could not believe it!!! and then slowly...me had no breath le...then my heart beat stops...but after a while me still can breath a little bit and that was when me is already awake and found out that that was a dream...so scare until me could not slp...but then me sang shi ge...and then not long after that...me felt safe and fell aslp le...heex...really thank God for always staying by my side...=p...well...until then, me realize that me haf to cherish everyone in my life and also cherish every hr, every min, every sec in my life so that me can do watever me can to spread the Gospel as there is not much time le...Jesus Christ is cuming back le...and this time is judgement day!!
ppl...be alert kiex...dun be those 童女 that dun haf enough oil when Jesus Christ cums...do wat u need to do not do wat u want to do...!

3rD dAy Of ExAm.......

2007-05-09T10:57:00.000+08:00

tis morning then me realize that my results for my poa paper 2 is most likely going to drop le lorx...so many wrong...aiyoyo...then today paper is math paper...THANK GOD that there is one qn me left 15 mins then knw how to do le...if not me going to get wrong for that qn lorx...but then theres one qn that me duno how to do de...forgotten what is the formula liao...that is my sec 2 work larx...but tink still can score for this paper...not bad larx...heex...then tmr is my bio paper and chem paper...bio still can cope but then my chem...die liao lorx...heex...really scare lorx...but still...going to try my very best...duno y they put bio paper first then the chem paper...me prefer chem le then bio...cuz always the sec paper me cannot concentrate de lorx...but if the bio paper is the sec paper...me still can do cuz me know mahx...but chem 2nd paper me cant concentrate lehx...then scare that the paper veri difficult...well...in any way..me still gota try my veri veri veri best...
the doc said that mama de diabetes is under control le...wahx...veri expensive lorx...$50 plus per week lehx...good that she only see twice lorx...but duno whether she still need to go back and see the doc or not...hope not...heex...me mean...hope that she can be okiex le then no need to go and see doc lorx...
okiex larx...gota study le...cya...=p

2nD daY oF eXaM.......

2007-05-08T12:14:00.000+08:00

2day is POA exam...paper 1 still okiex...but when cum to papaer 2...not okiex...me cannot balance lorx...! yesterday when me do one of the 'N' level qn, me still can balance the balance sheet lorx...y 2day cant de...sumore yesterday de is 'N' level qn lehx...today de is not lehx...duno whether can pass or not...nothing me can do now le...only can concentrate on other paper le...so me will not think abt the the paper that me take le...tink of the paper that me haven take is better...heex...
yesterday me go ah ma house tat time me ask daddy if mummy can go to the church on sunday...sunday is the 母亲节 mahx...then straight away he say no lorx...aiyo...then mama say she will help me ask again de lorx...so me quite happy...cuz at least got sum1 can help me ask also mahx...heex...daddy very fierce de lorx...a little bit then he can be really angry de lorx...he shout at 14th floor horx...1st floor also can hear his voice lorx...all his windows are closed sumore larx...so me very scare of him...heex...

ExAm Le.......

2007-05-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

today haf 2 exam...first one is social studies...and then the second one is geography...well...combine humanities is my weakest subject lorx...duno y they put the two so need to read until so many de together...anyway...first one is quite okiex cuz me still can concentrate but the second one is like...my brain juice is going to finish le lorx...heex...cant concentrate at all lorx...in the end after me finish doing le then start to draw on the map that is given to us... heex...of course gota erase it lorx...if not teacher sees it then gona be scolded by teacher le lorx...
going to ah ma house latecant slp...too hot liao...in the end me slp my mom's bed...hehex...sumtimes slp downstairs is beta...heex...r...after me bath le then go beta...very the hot lorx...today...last nite

>.<

2007-04-23T14:02:00.000+08:00

haiyo...我又要三分钟热度了啦。。。！本来还以为有这个blog 后我可以每天写东西但是。。。现在我又有点懒惰了。。。

eNgLiSh TeAcHeR DiDnT cUm 2dAy...

2007-04-17T19:54:00.000+08:00

me suppose to haf english after recess 2day but then my english teacher didnt cum 2day so in the end we didnt haf english today lorx...for me it's both sad and happy larx...sad is cuz teacher didnt cum larx then happy is cuz...actually not really happy larx...tink it's fortunately...heex...me didnt bring my english vocabulary book to school mahx so me actually decided to tell teacher the truth de but then in the end she didnt cum...so didnt say any thing lorx...then today also haf chemistry test...think it's in the middle bax...half easy half difficult...duno how to say lehx but can say quite okiex for me larx...but duno whether can pass or not lorx...hope can pass...
me after school visit my ah ma...looking at her me felt really happy cuz me LOVE her ALOOOOOOT!!!!! me really duno how me can live without her...me haf not seen my mom for 2 days le...haix...me really duno how and wat to say...she is doing 2 jobs in a day...me juz afraid that she cant cope lorx...really hope that she can concentrate on one job only...really duno how to tell her that me really LOVE her ALOOOOOOT...me dun want her to work until like duno wat like that...haix...as for my father...think he is getting "busier and busier" le lorx...almost every nitex also haf booking...the communication between us in our home is really getting wider and wider le...me dun wan this to happen to my family!!!
this sunday is 诗歌见证会...really want my whole family to cum...especially my father...dear LORD...求你让爸爸，妈妈，弟弟都要来。。。我不会放弃它们的灵魂的。。。因为我不要看到他们下地狱。。。！！！！！！！加油！！！=p.......

wAhX...aLoT oF cHaNgEs WoRx...

2007-04-16T18:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday me just knw that 0203 haf changes in our dao ban xiao zhu le...hmmm...now there are still three grps but the leaders will be cl, ww, mel and me...mel and me will be in the same grp...and after yesterday, me told myself...me WANT to see the revival to start frm my db xiao zu then 0203 then the church! me want to be that kind of person that can influence ppl de...knw what...on sat, cl ask a us a qn...she ask when we just wake up, what will we tink of...actually me every morning my mind will always haf one 诗歌 de...almost every day is different one...then will continue to sing lorx...heex...but me dun dare to say...duno y...heex...
so dun feel like going to sch 2day...heex...cuz 2day haf social studies test but then today my teacher didnt cum so in the end also no social studies test lorx...hahax...so the good...heex...2day so the hot larx...perspiring all the way until me reach my class...fortunately...me sit under the fan so quite good...heex...
atiqah did really share wif me alot...me so the glad that me is ur good fren...sharing the gospel wif u and praying for you makes me feel like...erm...duno how to say lehx...but dun worriex...it's not a bad feeling...heex...but of course its ur choice whether you going to accept or not larx...well...dun worriex abt ur family problem kiex...muz jia you o...and ur chinese not bad arx...improving le worx...heex
this afternoon is like so the "crazy" larx...and wat me going to say is.........PRAY!!!!!! SO THAT SATAN WILL GET LOST!!!!!!!!!! mama's angry...papa's angry...my bro also angry...everyone's angry 2day...so the "crazy" larx...wahx...juz duno how to tell my bro then he under stand lorx...me explain to him le but then me juz duno y he juz cant understand that satan is here to destroy us so we cant get angry if not we will be falling into his trap...haix...really wish tat he can understand...still thinking how to talk to him and make him understand larx...
juz now carmen sms me...and she told me that she didnt go to church le...me is like...soooooo the sad larx.....then me ask her y then she say that one of the reasons is tat her studies is getting frm bad to worst and the other is that she heard sometings abt chc...think is getting bad or duno wat larx...well...any way...me will ask her in details de when me meet her on sunday if she is cuming...haix...why nowadays the teenagers are all 怪怪 de...-.-...haiyo...

SpOrTs DaY...O2O3...

2007-04-12T20:07:00.000+08:00

my bro today at sports day need to do duty cuz he is in the N.C.C. mahx...then he cum to my room and find his hat...so he on the lights lorx...sumore me sleep on top de lehx...then he find sooooo the long larx...hate it larx...then cant sleep so went to the living rm to sleep...but then when me just fell asleep...he came out of the room and ask me to go in and sleep...so the pek cek larx...haix...he went out at 5.25am today lorx...soooo the early...cant believe he went out so the early...me woke up 5 mins after he went out...
me today took taxi wif Jasmine and met a strange and erm...sort of bai chi de taxi driver lorx...he duno how to go there mahx...so me want to show him the way lorx...but he dun trust me...>.<...me sooooooooo the pek cek wif him larx...cuz me going to be late le then he still drive so the slow...the worst thing is tat he dun trust me tat me knw how to go and insisted on calling my father or whoever knws the way...but in the end me instructed him there...that express way is the same as the N.U.H. de mahx...he also duno how to go there lorx...jurong east library he also duno how to go larx...walao ehx...>.<...haix...but okiex larx...me and Jasmine not counted late today...hehex...
a little bit of difference here and there for this yr de sports day...i mean...the pass few yrs, we are really really really the sianx lorx...sitting down there duno do wat...but then the pass...3 yrs me sitted at the tekong house there mahx....then the house or cheer leaders also not as good as this yr de bax...then this yr me sit at brani house de place...the house leader/cheer leaders is like...wow! she is so the encouraging...sporty...plus this yr the sec 1 all very naughty and noisy mahx...so quite fun larx...heex...after sports day me straight away go home le...nth to do there...
steven 2day so the handsome...maybe is cuz he wear the N.C.C. uniform bax...so thats y he is unusually handsome...hahax...duno why me now feel like having a bf...heex...but still cant find the right one...still waiting for God de 指示 bax...
today me go teach tuition after the sports day...chermaine (the gal that me teach...)...she is soooooo the cute larx...the first lesson she is sooooo the quite and dun dare to joke and laugh wif me but today arx...she can really joke and laugh non stop larx...but she knws how to control and when she should be serious larx...so not that bad after all...hahax...me feel great teaching her...heex...SHE IS SO THE CUTE!!! hahax...>.<...
duno how many days of thinking of the cha dian of TQ 2 for this sat de...aiyo...really duno wat to do lehx...so now still looking at the cook books...and the internet...sum of the food me want to do but scared that do le not nice lehx...basically...me lack of confidence...
O2O3...do u all knw that 你们的一举一动 affected me alot...? how to say nehx...erm...duno larx...me really scared that u all will not want to 理我了。。。你们让我觉得我离你们越来越远了。。。haiyo...duno larx...>.<...可以不要再做出 OR 说出一些让我觉得你们随时会抛弃我的感觉嘛。。。? 很恐怖的 lehx 。。。
one of the beautiful goldfish died today...my father was like...sooooo the shock larx...think tat fish kena "kiap" by the filter bax...hahax...then bo bian lorx...throw it away lorx...he is soooo the gan chiong larx...haix...睡觉哪些是他的宝贝 lehx...>.<

tOt 2dAy HaF sPoT cHeCk....>.<

2007-04-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday heard frm my D.M. said that theres spot check on upper sec 2day...but dun haf lorx...
always scared us like that...but they also clever larx...cuz one of my fren didnt go is cuz of his hair...think he is more "stupid" than me tot...hahax...
wahx...!!! today so the careless lorx...haf math test mahx...then theres one qn me tot me saw 5% but actually 15% lorx...xin tong lorx!!! then 2day also haf P.O.A. test...confusing sia...but still can balance but then duno whether correct or not...so duno can pass or not...haix...so many test...do until me tou hun nao zang...>.<
after all the tests me is like...sooooooo the tired le lorx...want to sleep but chemistry teacher dun let...want us to do mind map...hate doing mind map! not fun at all lorx...heex...
me after sch go home le duno that me haf to sai yi fu mahx...then when me is at the bus stop le then mama called me...ask me go home to go and sai yi fu...me so the pek cek larx...but no choice so me stomp back and sai lorx...then she wash so the many clothes...the washing machine cant take so many clothes de lorx...and not enough bamboo stick lorx...so need hangers...haix...so the lazy...
mummy went to Giant to go and apply for job...duno whether can get or not lehx...hope can...pls Lord..help mummy to get that job...my cousin kena cane by her father...haix...she dun want to say a thing when teacher asked her mahx...then the mother bu shuang lorx...haiya...duno how to say them larx...

hMmM...sPoT cHeCk AnD aLL.....hAiX...

2007-04-10T16:40:00.000+08:00

today early in the morning got spot check...but phew......not the upper sec...hahax...
onli lower sec...so my bro kena...heex...but onli check the attire larx...in the end my bro
got caught for the hair and was brought to the barber to cut...
my fren, shirley, was so the gan chiong larx...the D.M. also didnt say that will check on us...
she pin up her hair immediately after she heard that got spot check...then ask me y me didnt pin up...
me told her not to be so the gan chiong larx...wait for the D.M. to say that got spot check on the upper sec then pin up larx...
today also got the chinese compo test...the teacher didnt even say a thing larx...tot going to haf other things
instead of compo...but okiex larx...still can do...heex...
tot that sharing a house wif sumone me duno is a pain but now...think quite okiex...cuz tink this is the ritex kind of ppl...hahax...they are really nice although me still not really used to living with other ppl...heex...
atiqah today really shared wif me alot...really appreciate it...me really hope that me can help u...will tink of sumting de...erm...really hope that the gospel can help u but knw that u are protected by the law...heex...but will still think of solutions de...=p...hope that u can really go and think abt it...but of course me didnt force u larx...>.<...heex...

050407 的通宵祷告。。。

2007-04-09T16:14:00.000+08:00

hmm...我总觉得这次的通宵祷告和以前的通宵祷告不一样。。。
我觉得那时候多数都是少年人和一些的青年人。。。这次的有很多不一样的面孔。。。
我真的觉得超高兴的。。。也很被他们激励！我超喜欢通晓祷告的。。。although 很累 larx...heex
but 希望在一年里面可以有。。。mmm...大概。。。三，四次吧。。。heex
me really like it as me like to be with church members all the time...cuz wat we discussing is not shot term de...is eternal de...and luv it!

can u ever believe it?! my chemistry got a B3!!! actually can get A2 de...but then haix...think careless bax...heex...but me didnt expect myself to get a B actually...me tot me will fail larx...hahax...

FiRsT tImE....

2007-04-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

wow!!!
tis is the first time to haf a blog worx...
well...duno whether haf time to keep on blogging but will try my best de...heex